Hey.
Just wanted to do a short update and make myself feel better.
So, I just found out I didn't pass my grade 8 piano practical.
I kinda expected it since my teacher never contact me after the exam ended so long ago.
Sigh. Even though by now I'm quite used to failing and doing badly in exams or tests, I still feel really upset about this. I can't remember how it feels to do well and be proud of myself.
I think I did badly for Finals as well which makes everything worse, like i had a fight with success and she doesn't want to talk to me anymore :(
I thought I can finally stop my piano journey after a decade and be able to teach what I've learnt to the younger generation but no...not yet. My one year of piano lesson for grade 8 and the exam fee wasted. Re exam means i need to use more money and be a greater burden that i am now.

I removed my braces two days ago.
I should be happy about this but the happiness only lasted a few hours because my mum's not happy with it. She complained that my teeth are not 100% straight and still have
leftover fees not paid which is still a pretty large sum of money. Just like what I've mentioned in previous posts, me being a burden still gonna last for the next few years T.T
I can totally understand why some people choose to end their lifes like I heard that a student from my school committed suicide after the econs paper. I believe they were experiencing things that were much worst and with a low self esteem or very weak will. If my will was any weaker, I would be in trouble. But don't worry cos SJJ has a pretty strong will should I say, sigh.

Life goes on for me.
2015 is really not a good year so far.