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Hello whoever that is reading. 

I'm glad that promos are over and my results were okay...

hopefully i can promote successfully. 

Although promos are over, there is still one irritating thing left to worry...Project work. It's quite tiring to complete all the components. Sigh. 

Especially Oral presentation. I hate hate hate presentation so much in the past but at least I'm okay with that now but i still don't like it. 

Furthermore, you are expected to memorise your script and there will be 2-6 assessors watching you,not to mention 10 audience who are your school mates. 

I get nervous easily and I'm afraid i cannot take it. I'm really glad that i performed on stage for teachers day because it helped me a lot with confidence but also made me feel scared when i recall the terrible experience where i forgot my lyrics in front of the whole Audi filled audience...

What if i forget my script? What if my voice shakes? What if...

Damn i really am worried. 

But i think that if i practice a few times before the actual exam will really save me!

Anyway, today was a terrible day. 

I don't know why, i get irritated by the smallest thing. 

Recently, I got a new hairstyle. I permed my hair for the first time and i think that it turn out great! The reason why i decided to perm my hair was because i saw some of my school mates had their hair ends curled and it looked gorgeous and they did not get into trouble with the discipline com of the school. 

I thought that perming hair was nothing as compared to dying of hair. 

However, i was criticized by my teacher and used as an example for the class. If she were to speak to me in private, I'll probably be thankful that she cares but saying in front of the whole class was just something i cannot stand plus she repeated the whole thing when some late classmate returened to class. 

I know our teacher is a very straight forward person. It's not the first time that she criticized students in front of the class. And i also know that it is for our own good but i don't see the problem! Sigh. 

I have classmates that styles their hair with hair clay/gel, has obvious dyed hair and also rebonded hair but why didn't she say about them but me? 

Automatically, I concluded that I'm either unlucky or she's just against me.  

Furthermore, my skirt is quite long, I usually had my fringe pinned up, neat uniform with collar pin on at all times that they emphasized to always have on the uniform. 

Why me?

 WHY? 

So many classmates didn't even follow these rules and they are happily enjoying their life. You might think that I'm too emotional or sensitive or petty or whatever but I really got so upset. Everyone hate to be critisized! 

I myself also don't understand how i got so upset that i even sobbed/cried for around an hour in my room while blasting music. 

This is really a bad sign...too stressed? Not pms i'm sure because it was long over. 

My mood was so bad just now that i started scolding vulgarities...I apologise to those who saw my bad side just now because i usually hate saying vulgarities and I always thought that its for those low standard people but meh...irony.

 I felt so helpless just now and nobody could accompany me. Many of my close friends had plans with others. 

But I'm glad i met up with MABEL for awhile which did make my mood better. Thanks alot girl! Maybe its time for me to get a boyfriend. I swear i will be as sticky as chewing gum!  

Yay tomorrow no school and i'll be meeting some of my good friends for dinner! Hope my mood will be good by then! 

Alright, time for pictures...